Things are still wonderful for the hubby and I. Last night we had some MAJOR future talk about where our life is going and where we want to live and blah blah. My hubby really wants to travel and was talking about all these places to go and I was saying how would that all be possible unless he was full time army and not stationed here in Oregon with the guard. He agreed. So I asked if that was something he was thinking of, because in the past he has always been against it. He said not really but then we went on to have a really big conversation about it. I told him that I want to write and that I can do that from anywhere. It sounds crazy but I just want to be with my hubby now and I don't really care where we live. There are complications as usual with animals, family, and friends but we could figure those things out. We wouldn't have to move far away or to another country nesessarily. Maybe just a state or two away. So it was very exciting as we were talking in terms of the next four+ years of our life together. When/if we want kids to fit into that timeline, where we want to settle down eventually, trips we want to take, etc. It's giving me a great chance to affirm and tell him that I trust him with my life and our life together. Which is great.
As for the here and now things are good. We still see each other about once or twice a week. He is coming over on Saturday after his drill weekend. I hope he stays the night but I doubt he will as he will probably want to get home and unpack and everything. It would just be nice for him to come to church. Well and to sleep together, that is always nice.
He is looking for a job both here and in the city he lives in and wants us to move to. Nothing is working out yet. I'm getting a little annoyed by all that because the longer he takes to find a job the longer this drags on. I appreciate that he is waiting to find a high paying job so we can rent a house like I requested and we have started looking at some to get a good idea of what it would cost and all that. I just wish it would speed up a little as it puts me in limbo. I can't really look for a job anymore because I don't know where I am going to be living. So I told him last night that I am going to start looking for a Starbucks job because then I could transfer really easily to wherever we live, even cross country or in California if we went there for training. I don't want to be doing coffee my whole life but it works for now, at least I know what I am doing! So I'm gonna try and apply around town next week when I have a day off. The cafe I work at now has given me hardly any hours and my paychecks just keep shrinking. Ahh! It drives me bananas. Luckily hubby has been taking care of me. Nice to have a sugar daddy somtiems. Lol. Just kidding. It's actually kinda awkward because I have been fending for myself for so long it is awkward to ask for money and I have this internal urge to do it all myself. But we have also talked a lot about money and how my hubby is going to be in charge of it and that we need to combine our accounts again because when I moved out I got my own seperate account. But it will be nice to move in and have him take it over, finances make me nuts! I get too stressed and then it starts to affect our marriage. Our first year of marriage he was in charge of it and we never fought about money even though we didn't have any! Hehe. And then when he left I took over and when he got home he just never took it back and we kinda did half and half and that's when things got crazy out of control and we started fighting about it. So it will be better this way. Much better. Plus it is one of the things on his list, he wanted me to trust him with financial decisions. Well honey you can have them all! How's that?
On a more annoying note I am supposed to go to my IC appt on Thursday and I really don't want to. I am very tempted to cancel and "forget" to reschedule. After last time I just don't see how it is going to help me. She obviously knows nothing of DBing and she has an argumentative tone that I do not like and it hinders me from being honest because I know what she will say. How sad is that? Ugh. I just don't want to deal with it.
Well anyways. . .that was a lot of rambling. I haven't posted like this in awhile. Guess I had build up. Bottom line is my life in in flux and yet because I know that hubby and I will be together I just don't care as much.
So I'm gonna try and apply around town next week when I have a day off. The cafe I work at now has given me hardly any hours and my paychecks just keep shrinking. Ahh! It drives me bananas. Luckily hubby has been taking care of me. Nice to have a sugar daddy somtiems. Lol. Just kidding. It's actually kinda awkward because I have been fending for myself for so long it is awkward to ask for money and I have this internal urge to do it all myself. But we have also talked a lot about money and how my hubby is going to be in charge of it and that we need to combine our accounts again because when I moved out I got my own seperate account. But it will be nice to move in and have him take it over, finances make me nuts! I get too stressed and then it starts to affect our marriage. Our first year of marriage he was in charge of it and we never fought about money even though we didn't have any! Hehe. And then when he left I took over and when he got home he just never took it back and we kinda did half and half and that's when things got crazy out of control and we started fighting about it. So it will be better this way. Much better. Plus it is one of the things on his list, he wanted me to trust him with financial decisions. Well honey you can have them all! How's that? 
