You know, this might sound too simple-like but....
....it's just that my feelings are so hurt.
It makes me feel better actually, to realize that H is only thinking of himself. MrB helped me see that clearer...H is destitute and I have no idea how H thinks filing D papers is going to get him the money he needs immediately.
Oh well....it's difficult for me to accept such a lack of common sense.
My strength right now is in the fact that I am not contacting, responding, interacting with H AT ALL>
S10 has a soccer game tomorrow though...I have to deal with H's presence and I'm not sure how much DBing to do. I can nearly hypnotize myself into thinking/acting that H is invisible.
Sophie
~~ Me-50 H-38 Married 15 years 8/7/08 D8 S10 S13 H affair 11/04-7/04 maybe longer H moved out 4/06
7/30/08- present: Reconnecting w/kids,friendly 10/30/08 H signed D papers 11/10/08 D papers filed 11/13/08 D papers served at home