New Me - Will WAW ever notice?

[Kakatal]

PM,
First off thanks for dropping by. Will catch up on your sitch & return the favor.

Katatal, keep up the good work. I think we are at the same stage emotionally at the moment. DB'ing like crazy trying and hoping that our WAS would notice the difference. But Tim is right, we need to be a friend now and not expect anything otherwise we are the ones who will get hurt and I am DONE being hurt. Had enough and don't need anymore, thank you.

I have had my share of snooping and confrontation. But nothing good came from any of it, my curiosity was satisfied but so what. It changed nothing, the situation remained the same and our R suffered from the confrontation. It took a few months but I finally stopped snooping. I feel like I am flying blind at the moment but also a lot less hurt. I think I like this option better.

Sounds like you are really beginning to think things through. You are doing good work on yourself.

I haven't snooped into w's dealings since Mid-Sept. Like I said I was trying to figure out how she found key logging software since she isn't too computer savvy to figure it out herself. Then curiosity got best of me & now I am dealing with the results.

Not happy I snooped but feel better knowing that OM is still in picture. Had convinced myself things with him were done but did so based on assumptions. Mistake on my part that I will not be repeating.

I am also tired of being hurt but realize that I am hurting myself by getting my hopes up about the sitch. Trying to complete the journey now instead of just being patient & working on myself. Kept thinking last night that I wish D was already final so I could just move on & not have to get hurt anymore. But that is just hurt talking - want nothing more than to have time to work on me & hope w gets her issues resolved & wants to work on M.

Thanks for the support.