Thank you both so much! I just can't believe all the evil things I feel I have endured because of him! And I am sure it is not over. But he just gets up every day and goes on his merry way thinking he is "Gods Gift" I've heard that term my whole life (I'm from the south east) but honestly until lately and dealing with his ego and his paternal ego it never really sunk in. OMG! Maybe I'm a "patsy" but if he can look at himself everyday and not have any guilt over what he's done to me and now our children then he is evil to the core. I guess I need to start feeling pity for him. Because the depths of his betrayal and the fact that he thinks it is OK just scares me to the core and to think that I married him.
The funny thing is I joined this BB to keep my marriage together and now I just want to end it quick. Now every day when I learn something even more horrific from the week before and sometimes just recognize things I tried to overlook and I am truly scared that I've been with this person for 20 years. I know Marriage has ups and downs and I always accepted that. Now I feel he has left me no other choice. I feel so much anguish that my kids thanksgiving and christmas will probably be scarred for years to come. But I have postponed and postponed and postponed always waiting for the next sign and he would always turn into prince charming for a couple of days at a time. Anyway I thank you both so much for giving me such comforting support.
Me 46/H 48 M 19/T 20 S 16 D 9 Bomb 2/9/08 OW 2/29/08 Ended A 3/12/08 (LIAR)
