I have no idea what brought it on. The last two days have been weepy, but today in particular. I guess you just need to have a meltdown every once in a while.
And I guess they will get less frequent. It is still hard, though, because I don't think I will ever love anyone like I do my H. And I am okay with that, because I wouldn't want anyone to take his place. But I am torn between moving on, and hanging in there a little longer. And this has been a struggle for the last few weeks. I want so badly to let go, and just move on. But there is something in me that won't let me, not yet. Maybe someday that will be different. But for now, I am not done, and it drives me nuts.
And I don't know which is worse, going dark or talking to him every day.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
