Thanks to all of you for the visits. It means a lot to me, and I'm really serious about that. Christa, I went on your thread one night trying to catch up and got so tired I had to give it up and hit the sack. But I haven't forgotten about you.....just wish I knew what to say to help your stitch. But, I'm pulling for you and want you to be happy. You work so hard and you deserve to have a good man to treat you right.

Lovehimso, you did not make me mad at all. The only way somebody usually makes me mad is to get real ugly to me. I get tickled at some of the guys when I use a 2x4 (as they call it) and some people think I am mad, but my kids would hoot at that and be quick to tell them, "They ain't seen mad, yet".....lol. Just kidding. I really am not that bad..... ;\)

My H got a good report on his test about his heart. It did show a restriction and I was concerned it would mean another open heart surgery, but they think they can take care of it with medication. His difficulty breathing (they think) is caused from high blood pressure. He is on blood pressure meds, but they are going to adjust it. Anyway, if they can keep that under control, maybe he will start feeling better. I don't mind telling you that I was getting very concerned that he was headed for a heart attack b/c he was acting just like he did before his by-pass surgery.

My D has been pretty sick. If it's not one thing, it's another, but she seems to take it all in stride. Just as she gets over one thing....or even before she can get over it....something else is hitting her. I think she got her strong constitution after my grandmother....cause it sure wasn't me. \:\( I tell you all something....it hurts when you have two children and both of them on disability before they were even 40 years old. I would exchange places with them but my health isn't good enough that they would want to....... I have had some rough days over the weekend and missed a couple of days of work. After Sunday, I hope some of the stress at church will let up, and maybe things will get a little better. I know stress makes it a lot worse for me.

Anyway, don't have much to report in the M department. Things still rocking along about usual. We are getting along fine and especially since he isn't so moody now. Only thing is I know he worrys about the money situation....who isn't these days! But, his is more out of not being physically able to hold out to do the work b/c he gets calls for jobs that he just can't do.....and it's a shame b/c we sure could use the income. But, I suppose he is doing the best he knows how. Sometime I get kind of put out with him for not doing more around the house, but compared to a lot of men, he does well and is good to me and I'm trying to see that side of him. Sure, it would be nice on the days he doesn't work to come in and find he had cleaned house, washed clothes, cooked....the whole bit. However, he has never been one to do all of it at once. If he washes.....it takes him all day. If he cooks, it takes him all day.....etc. But, he could be a lot worse.

BTW, I'll tell you all something kind of funny. Yesterday at work, this man came in and I did not even think about it until he left and suddenly it dawned on me that he sort of resembled the OM.....not a lot, but enough that it made me think about it. I thought, what would I do if he were to just walk in here some day to surprise me? Well, first, I probably might faint. But, I doubt that will happen. But one thing is for sure and I can say without a doubt in the world......I have no feelings for OM what-so-ever. So, you see, everything that I was told in the beginning when I came on board......was true. I had the "grass is greener" disease. But, I can say that people can get over EA's! Thank God I did not let it go farther, but I think that it would be harder, but not impossible, to get over a PA also. As I said to one of you not long ago.....it is almost as if a person kind of goes crazy or something. I still don't understand it except it is like a desparate search for happiness or an emotional need filled......and you go looking in all the wrong places.

Well, thanks again to all of you for caring so much. It helps me get up the next morning and hit at life again.

Love,
Sandi

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!