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[optimistwife]

What is wrong with my H? I think he is slipping into a new EA!

Turns out he has another new friend- a girl at school who is happy to come over in the middle of the day to walk his dog, is now spending more and more time hanging out with him. He's enthralled- as usual. He was hanging out with her Monday watching movies while I was sick from my root canal.

I am sick to my stomach now. I slipped off the DB track. He talked about coming over last night, when I talked to him at 830, then never showed up, answered phone- nada. Sent him text finally and told him I really needed a friend and was disappointed he didn't come over. Finally called at midnight- said he fell alseep. Great.

I tossed and turned for a long time in bed and finally wrote a stupid poem about everything I was wondering. Yup- sent it too.
It made me feel only slightly better becuase I just see this never ending cycle. I was thinking that the last one is done and gone, and here is a new one starting. I was thinking that we were getting better...

2x4 me if it is appropriate but I am really sad about everything in the past few days. Even if he came back would he ever stop making such 'good' friends? Would he ever be there in my time of need?

I just scheduled a session with Jody for Monday. Hope I can keep my sanity until then. I should probably just retreat from everything until I can regroup.