OK, tested waters....She had text me about the gym fees. Told her it was all set. Text her back "where r u with us f anywhere". I know I shouldn't have done it, felt I needed to. anyway, the response I got was if I want to do gifts for Xmas from both us or seperate. Text her back and said haven't thought about it, figured I'd get them gifts from me. Getting gifts from us would seem strange. She felt it would be cheaper. I don't want to do this with her because I do not want to enable her. I also don't want to be getting some false connection going. I believe I am right in my stance on this. Don't expect to hear anything back from her on this matter, and I will go dark again.
I have tested the waters and the response was what I more or less expected, nothing, ignored. Nothing ventured nothing gained. I am feeling weird about her again. don't know why. Have a busy weekend planned, cleaning out closets and the basements, yee haw...
It appears she is thinking at least a month or so into the future regarding Xmas and presents. The impression is that we will not be together at any level of a relationship during the holidays so I have that question in my mind answered. Won't have to wonder if there will be an us during that time. Its sad, but rather deal with it now and get past it. I will keep my plans unchanged for the holidays.
