Its been quite awhile since I have logged on ... I took a break from these boards as I tried to sort out my life.
I have to say I am in a much better place than I was 2 weeks ago. I have let go, moved on and given up the hopes of my marriage surviving this affair.
Actually, I dont want it to survive anymore. I've realized that I want more from life than what my husband can offer. As I have distanced myself I am finding myself happier and having more fun than I have had in years!
It is funny...he is extremely interested in what I am doing and who with...
He even said in a text he thinks about all of us everyday... lol....those kind of comments used to give me hope and I would hold onto his every word.
Now... I dont really care, nor do I believe him. I am done!
I've gone out dancing a few times. Had a blast and danced the night away. Bought two new outfits..and got tons of attention!
I know that someday I will meet someone that will be loyal and faithful to me.
I dont regret the time I spent trying to save my marriage. I can hold my head high and let my children know I tried with all my heart.. for them.
I still get sad, but more for the situation and what lies ahead. I am not looking foreward to the actual divorce paperwork..attorneys and splitting up the house...ugh!
Thank you to everyone that listened to me cry and gave me advice. You are definately a great group of people.
I will check back every now and then and see how everyone is doing!
