Why do you feel the nsed to "pick myeslf up by my bootstraps" ? Its ok to be down, to be sad, to mourn the loss of your M, if you are now accepting/realising that it is over. Its a hard journey losing the man you love and even more so, I am sure, if you M him and have those memories too. You wouldnt have gone into the M expecting to D, neverlone soon, so I dont blame you for feeling a bit low. Dont be hard on yourself!?
I agree, there is nothing more you could have done, you behaved well, were loving and patient. But, one thing that strikes me, I am not so sure that you backed off and gave him space, he left you and took that space for himself, so you are not responsible and therefore, no, YOU didnt give him space to start a new R, he decided to start a new R. You are not to blame, it was not your doing and you couldnt have stopped him.
Thinking of you, I am sure you will hear from him soon, he must've been shocked! Al x
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
