Please send me good karma!!....I'm gonna need it!

[Silent Chrleader]

Thanks, (((((Treese)))))!

I believe that your H really will wake up one day and it will be his loss and he'll know it. I know that for good women like you, that doesn't help because we take no pleasure from the idea of their pain, and (at least for me) if feel like in many ways that would just make it seem all the more sad! All this pain soooo unneccessary.

I just got a call from my H. He is on the way to the Dr to get the STD tests. Yesterday we found out S17 is behind in school again. This is not so surprising given the revelations last week to the burdens he has been carrying emotionally/mentally for the last several months. This weekend I had invited by Step-bro and his daughter up to our "dream house", with my D24, S17 and I. I had told H he was welcome to still go up there too, but he had balked at that (since he knows that Step-bro knows about our sitch). Well, H just told me that he had thougth about what I said and he in fact would be going up to the house this weekend too. H said he knows he does need to "get over it" (his wanting to run and hide), and it will give H opportuninty to talk to S17 and discuss what is happening with him "other than watching his Dad 'mess' his whole life up over the last several months." (H's words, not mine!!).

Afraid to hope! Still mentally chanting the mantra "no expectations"........