my H hasn't called since my breakdown Sunday, only 3 days going on 4 and this is the longest we've ever gone.. odd is I miss him so much .. I guess b/c of the kids we've had to keep contact so I know everyday or so I'm talking with him... now that I haven't I miss him... I know I need this time so I can get to the point T2L says where I can interact without all the emotion and start DBing better... right now I'm just so hurt.
AND he is suppose to watch the girls every weekend for one day and night and we hadn't set up which day this weekend he'd be doing this... I have a feeling he won't call, he won't offer to see the girls, and my D4 has been asking for him... when is daddy coming home? When will I see Daddy again? I just try to distract her...
I do have better days but I can't imagine seeing the good in all this, the purpose.... so painful and lonely.
hanging on so I can get strength to fight for our marriage....
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08
