The results are in...Dust myself off & start again

[Treese]

MOrning all....

Last Thanksgiving we spent it together...it was tough and I ended up crying in the bathroom and my MIL came in to comfort me..this was all before I found out about "the child"...this year I just can't do it....I know my SIL will be disappointed but I want it to be a happy time for my kids and it wouldn't be if I'm crying in front of them...I don't think H would bring OW in front of "ME"..but hey I'm not sure of anything anymore...my decision right now is to stay home and let my children go if they wish...I will not hold them back from seeing their grandparents...although my D22 wants nothing to do with it...she's an adult I stay out of it....

I love my SIL to death..like I said she is one of my best friends...that's why all of this is so tough...we grew up together...went to school together...now we are closer than she and my H....

So last night after texting with my H yesterday and him asking me about S11 practices he wanted to know the times and maybe he could help out...I said no big deal...I could do it...a little PMA....I didn't hear from him after that probably was angry that I said, "no big deal"...then about 3 hours later I get a text that he can pick him up after practice...a little guilt I think...I said great....

He brought him home and came in the house whistling...WTF? Just so happy go lucky...then whips out his phone and starts texting...OMG...I just totally ignored him...made some dinner for my son...even gave my H a piece of meatloaf....then H went to his car and brought in his laptop and opened his email...geeezzz.....so I went upstairs while he helped son with homework...as I was sitting on my bed, H yelled up, "thanks for the food, and bye".....I didn't answer.....and here I am today...

Why does he have to come in and rub in how happy he is....I didn't react which I think was a good thing....but I also didnt talk to him much...I didnt think it was necessary...

So, lets hear it...I'm a fool....

I've been asked to go watch the football game this weekend with a man....I might go....a few wings....a beer....might do me some good...I dont' need a relationship just some fun to keep my mind occupied...