God grant me the patience and the strength...8

[theotherhalf]

This is what I do. I say every morning "good morning". With a smile. When I leave for work I say "have a good day or sleep well". When he leaves at night for work, I say "have a good night". Questions are usually just to make conversation. And your right it is easy to be friendly to him. Even when I'm angry at him it seems one smile from him and I melt...

ex: last night when I left work, I was headed down the street and our grain truck appeared at a corner up ahead. It was H. It almost looked like he had come from up the street. I was instanly fuming. Had he been to OW's? But the gas station is there on that corner. Maybe that is where he was. Any way followed him home and was ticked and wanted to ask where he had been. But I thought...either I'll tick him off cuz I am accusing him, or he'll lie about it anyway. So I let it go and was just fine with him. As the night wore on and he talked about hauling the load to town. I THINK he was just coming from the station. So probably good I didn't just assume and let it go.

The part I am struggling with is leaving him alone, whether or not to. And it's hard in my house to find a place to "hide" in.