I've never written to you before, but I know what made a HUGE difference for me was getting a DECENT place to live. When STBX and I separated in 06, I moved into some old guys garage, and gave her everything, hoping I could appease her (wrong answer). I thne went to Iraq for a year as a Reservist, and really got my head screwed on straight.
I put away enough for a NICE place when I returned, which gives me some DIGNITY back. I must have been crazy to let my kids see me in a fuc&ing garage!