Wow..I figured no one would notice if I disaapeared!!!Again I underestimate my worth..
Last Sat.got a call that my elderly Aunt was very sick in Nebraska..she has no kids, so my sister and another aunt and uncle drove out there..on Tues which was my birthday we removed all life support and she passed away Wed..my sister and I came back yesterday as there is a service here Monday.......so I have been gone and was getting dbing withdraws!!! Through all this my h has been great, I called him for support and wisdom on things....he calmed me down when I was at wits end from the tension and lack of sleep..had I asked him to come, he probably would have..he arranged some things here(despite my sister being rude to him)she has never likde him, and now feels like he is not part of the family...last night when I got home he stopped by and he was talking to me about how she had made him feel..he had gone and talked to our pastor and tried to sort if he had really done something wrong.. He said that he is still my husband, and that even if he weren't he would do anything he could to help... affirmed over and over how much I needed him, and that it is her problem. When he left HE hugged me and we cried together. He told me to get a good nights sleep...we are going to his nieces wedding tomorrow and I am so looking forward to something happy for a change...
So many emotions..so little sleep..but I see big steps with h. I am becoming more and more confident to talk to him down the road..I get the feeling(yet I doubt myself and wonder if it is just what I want)that he is drawing closer to me..but who knows.
Hope everyone is well...will catch up little by little
