I understand what you say but I cant fully immerse in something right now. i feel stuck. I am doing baby steps. I wish like anything that i could do leaps.
I worry over no contact - he can focus on getting new woman. Fear of getting new woman is that his own insecurities will make him stick with her. Yet statistically and even my new C has said - he is not in the right head space to form a relationship, well a healthy one.
BUT I kow what i was doing did not work, I know that my last shot of hope is silence and space. i know this but the adrenalin still races through my veins when I think about him. But again interestingly not when I saw him Tuesday.
I will get to the place where I can stop this waste of energy and when i do there is plenty to do and plenty of support. I find this site invaluable but worry about lack of success stories ( I may not be looking properly ) i also know that if i were to meet someone, then the fall will soften , i will be distracted but it would not be good for this family or the new relationship. Wrong reasons.
I look forward to sleep just so i can take a pill. Night passes all to quickly though and then i have to get through a whole new day. Weeellll I do think I am making little progress.
Thanks for staying with me, i value yours and anyone elses input.
