I had an affair 5 years ago, the actual physical part of the affair lasted about 6 mos. I moved out, moved back in and then I continued to talk to the man in emails and on the phone. I then made my husband move out. He moved back in 6 mos later and here we are, no sex life, not really much of a relationship at all except for money and the kids. He won't touch me, he tells me I have done nothing to make things better, he wants to talk about it and at this point he doesn't even believe the things I tell him because I think he's stewed about it for so long he has his mind made up of how things went and he's convinced himself that the entire span of our marriage was fake. I don't really think posting on here will help much. He told me he hated me tonight, I think he really means it. My affair was for selfish reasons, it had nothing to do with sex, it was how nice the guy was to me and how glad he always was to see me, all my husband seems to think it was was sex, regardless of what I tell him. I'm just rambling - whoever reads this, if anyone could possibly give me an idea of what my husband is needing from me, any ideas at all, please let me know. Oh -- and I haven't spoken a word to the other man for two years now. I never want to speak to him again, I feel like he helped me ruin my life, that's all he is to me.
