sue,

don't allow yourself to feel guilty for the things you have said.

I most often try to not say anything about the ff to you...but sue...they may not have been having a sexual relationship..but neither were you and your h. He was having an affair with her..so what if it was in the open and possible that neither of them was aware of it.

you were right to question it.

You are right that whatever h is doing now is about him though and not about ow.

when you are ready to bring up a convo about what the future or heck what the present holds for your r with him I kinda get the feeling you are going to have to be the one to do it.

or heck I have an idea...

I know my threads are many and they are full of anger and ranting...but you might find a useful thing or two in the old ones that were in newcommers.

LL