Hi, Karen,

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"pi**ing in the wind"


Probably so. That sounds exactly like something my ole' man would have said.

Part of me recognizes that I may very well be giving her the drama she desires. But then again another part of me feels like I need to also be careful to defend what is right. Sort of like how if someone lets an infringement to a copyright or trademark go unchallenged, then (by law) they stand to forfeit it. Likewise, I feel that if I don't at least state my objection to the offensive behavior, then I am, in effect, condoning it.

The trick then is to try to stay clear of the drama while asserting your position.

I'm not so certain the WAS, in my own case at least, really knows the truth. Subconsciously, maybe. But I think they have so completely built up a facade of lies and deception that they believe it themselves. I believe that if they have any conscience at all, for them to live with and perpetuate their actions, they have to suppress that conscious completely through delusion.

My W has a particularly virulent strain of self-delusion -- she is justifying her actions as being sanctioned by God. She is guilty of what Ravi Zacharias describes as choosing one's own way and then making it look like it is God's way for their life.

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Do you pray for her every night?


I do.

Nearly every night. Even when I have just cleaned the fresh venom out of my wounds again.


Me: 49
WAW: 47
S11, S7
Years Married/Together: 17/18
Bomb: 6/15/07
Separation: 7/6/07
D: 4/3/09

Real love is a decision.
Marriage is a commitment.