Ok today i am just going to journal.

I am having a down day but other than a few moments , i have not been as down as I was last week.

I had an oppotunity to see him this afternoon. Papers to sign , but i resisted and sent them with daughter. I know tomorrow I will feel better bout doing this.

i have been available and nice and a doormat for 2 years, pamoering to all his needs and that got me nowhere. So as a 180 with the intent to become stronger as well i am

1. Having no contact except for once a week email.( except for Tuesday visit )
2. Have an IC meeting once a week.
3.Going out socially without him tomorrow night.
4. Treated myself to a 1/2 day spa. Did not enjoy it , cried even, but did it anyway.

Am i doing the right thing? It sounds like it when i read this back but it feels almost impossible to keep doing.It hurts real bad. Yet everytime i do something a little more i feel empowered.

But I want my H back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last edited by Mof3; 11/13/08 03:43 AM.