Aud, Trusting is hard. The only thing YOU can do is focus on what YOU can do for the R. Continue to remind yourself of what your H's needs are and try to fulfill them.
IMO, the more you do to meet his needs, the more he will work to meet yours and the closer you will become to each other. And when you are feeling more connected, you'll naturally start to trust more.
As for the faith thing, I am right there with you. I accepted a long time ago that H doesn't have a strong faith... possibly because he doesn't want to face what he's done in the eyes of God. But at the end of the day, you cannot control what his belief system is. YOu can control yours and you can raise your kids with a strong faith. But if your H is going to find faith, he needs to do it on his own.
Anyway, sounds like you're doing pretty well!
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track
