If you get to have that beer with H you may want to have 2 of them.
I know how hard it is to set in front of some stranger and tell them the private details of your life. It seems when you start your story you wind up talking about all of your bad things you did and are. Then you start to feel so guilty and that everything that happened in your M was your entire fault. In reality it takes two to tango and you find you are not totally at fault, but you still feel real bad. You taught your S how to treat you. Your S is not without fault. But still you are the one that is working on the problems and issues that created your sitch. You feel all alone in this task, because your S either does not feel that it is their fault or they do not have the problem. C is hard on every one. It is hard for a man to admit that he is wrong and if he does its hard for him to take the action necessary need to change. BUT IT CAN HAPPEN I am the prefect example. I recognized my weakness and work on them to the point that I have made a person that I like in me. I like it him so much that I want to continue to work, improve and be better. Some of my weakness will take my attention for the rest of my life. C/MC is worth the time and effort to gain a second chance at a NEW HAPPIER life in a R/M.
I guess what I am trying to say is C is worth it and if both of you work hard you can achieve the happiness. It has been a very long time since I feel as happy as I do today with myself and even happier with my W.
W just called and we talked for about 20 minutes. Did I say that she called me? She is planning to come home next Friday and watch a movie with me on the couch. she plan on spending the weekend. That is another chance for me to show how much I have change for the better.
Keep swing away. Take a good tight grip and swing away. I have a feeling that you are going to make Par on this hole Thursday night. PMA
