long time....

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My daughters adore my bf.... they do see their dad on a regular basis even if we dont have shared custody. They are sick of their dad moving (he moved 3 times in the last 2 years)and honestly cant say they miss him all that much. They do love him but my bf gets the same welcome! To my kids eyes my bf is just a friend of mom's. They have no clue as we never kiss in front of them.

I prayed eveyday for him to come home.... but then I met this great guy and part of me was using him to get the other reacting but at the same time I fell into the trap and started having feeling for the man!!!! They say careful for what you wish for cause you just might get it all... well here I am!!! Both options look good... XH looks a bit better as I have kids with him and know what to expect in day to day life.... BF is however the sweetest soul I have ever met!

Life with XH was good and then a depression hit and he took off with OW. Work was more important than his family. He hardly ever had time for the girls.... would skip a night and not take it back.... but he seems to have come full circle. Has been going to therapy and wants "his" family back.

I guess I know where I am heading and that is back with him yet at the same time I kind of would like to keep my safety exit clear!!! I know its not OK, I am having anxiety attacks cause of it! If both are really willing to put forth all the effort needed what are the odds of comming out with success.... I know its the best for our children in the long run... nothing worst than having two homes and going back and forth!

Can depression cause all this heartache!!!???