Just journaling...saw h at church from distance..just kinda smiled at him..he back..then he came over..asked if something was wrong(because I was smiling???)I said "no"..asked him again if he would come by and put new blind up..he said he would... He came over and put it up...He just left..had very little to say..this frustrates me..is he confused..STILL..guilty...I don't want to fall into the"he does not love or want you anymore"mood...but it sure seems like that when he is so distant...tomorrow is our 25th anniv..maybe he was afraid I would bring it up..I have the card, but am not giving it to him. I hope he does not take it as me not caring anymore..
