Help..I need some reassurance..a 2x4..I was talking to sil (my side of family)tonight and she was telling me that someone at church had asked her about h and I ..as he was telling about the "bats" and was asked where we live..he said I live in the house and he lives elsewhere.. this person was shocked and asked sil if we were d..she also told me that h asked her if in our worship meeting I speak up or volunteer for stuff..she said yes..now this one really bothers me..it does not sound like something he would ask her..he knows me pretty well and knows at times I can voice my opinion and he knows I volunteer..so I would like to ask him if this is what he said and why would he ask her.Sil also said the pastor asked her once if she thought I was doing ok..and sil said that she gets defensive for me in that it all seems to be about h and what he wants or does not want.
So question..dilema...for all those that have so faithfully followed me:give me some strength or do's or don't..should I confront h as to what the h*** he wants in this r??Should I continue to wait..I know that you can't give me the"answer" I trust and respect what you guys think and say..I will always make the final decision..but am I crazy to be waiting almost a year and h shows no interest in the two of us as a m couple? When he left he said he needs his time to find himself and that the two of us need to get to know each other again..well the last part has not even started. I know this sounds like a broken record..I go along ok until someone stirs things up..Sometimes I wonder if he feels such guilt for hurting me,( yet I have always had the feeling that he does not see that I was hurt) OR have I hurt him so deeply for implying an a, that he can't bring himself to have anymore contact with me than what we have..and the only way is to ask him...and that is what this is all about....
