Just journaling..h came over today to meet with the "bat" man..we only have maybe 15 in the attic..that's 15 too many..we really need a new roof..so I said to h do we want to spend that kind of money..I was trying to hint if we were going to keep the house..I can't keep it alone..with out his money..he said it needs to be done whether we sell it or not..son was present, as I would have liked to pursue..but did not...a little while ago I called ad asked him if he wanted to go the the Kevin Costner movie..he sounded different, but said yes..when I hung up I wished that I had not called him..I got the feeling that he did not want to go...if he would just say so..now I am going to feel tense with him..ohhhhhhhh what is this all going to become..days like this I am getting tired of it all..I tell myself I am going to wait for him to ask me...
Do you think I need to back off ..I don't really call him unless I really want to ask him something..I have never called just to say hi, and I won't.
Will go tonight and enjoy myself...I have to try and not let his mood pull me down or think it is me..maybe he has had a bad day or week...that is where alot of my feelings got all twisted..thinking it was always me he was mad at..
