long time....

[chaflo]

Its been a while since I have been here.... juse celebrate my two years of separation (working on myself) last sunday.

Here is a briefing of it all... two years ago H left for OW coworker, said he did not love me etc.... Filed for D (actually found out through a message on my answering machine) in december 2007, divorce was final by january 31st. He then in early april married this OW. He never said but I knew... that super sense we have for these things.

I met a great man in january and have been dating on and off (poor man) since then. I have broken this guys heart more times than he deserves yet he sticks around, even asked me to marry him. We have been more serious since june. In july I finally had my gut feeling confirmed at our D5 soccer game. So I felt at ease to move on with my life, knowing that I had tryied almost everything and it had been a over a year. Yet I had never truly shut the door on my hopes of him returning.

Well oddly enough september comes around and he now wants back in.... I am just worried he is going to mess with my head. I have not left my BF as I am not willing to let go of a great guy for just words. He is still living with her and nothing seems to have changed. He writes everyday,and seems to be serious, has asked for a transfer in his work and all....

Just wondering what you all think of this, should I keep my guards up, I am loosing sleep and get snappy for stupid things which is not at all like me.

Thanks a million. My prayers are with you all.
Me 33
H 38
D 4
D 5