KAW..you have a great way of making me think..until I read it, I did not even think that h was taken by surprise that pastor talked to me..after our conversation I thought maybe I told him too much..the fact that they are so close and she did not mention that she was having breakfast with me surprises me..it was no secret meeting and she did not pry into our m problems..I hope that he is not upset with her for asking me if I am ok with things the way they are.Maybe just the little bit will jolt him into thinking about us and what the future may hold.
Ran into wife of h coworker, we did things as couples last year and the ff-coworker was also latched onto her h..she said since the ff found her new man, that she also dumped her h as a friend..I said that is good, but that when my h needed her last fall for the friend that he thought she was, she had moved on to her new man..dumped my h..good for me, but sad for h.
I thought about asking h to movie, but I will hold back..he may be doing these things becasue it is easier, as all the years past to go, rather than say no. I want him to make a move..even though I know that is not him, if I don't always ask..I could ask him if it is too much that I ask him to do things..if he would rather I don't...that would not be a full blown r talk..but might open things up for him.It kills me to know if he is going to renew his lease..but I am not asking....
My real fantasy..and trust me I know it is not reality..is that on our anniv..he sends me flowers with a note that says "I would like to start over again" It is just something I wish could happen..I read way too many romance stories where everything works out happily ever after. I will not be waiting for the flowers or sad that it did not happen. Just a harmless wish!!!
