Not much new here..took the rest of week off for no reason..taking first week in sept too...wish I had somewhere to go..I don't travel alone...
Had a call from our pastor..she wanted to ask me 2 things..would I bring the crackers and marsmallows for campfire smores..and she would like to have breakfast or lunch with me..now this one kinda threw me..at first I thought she was going to tell me something was wrong with h, although I know she could not tell me anything they have talked about..so Thurs am meeting her at bakery..she said at the end of conversation..the reason I am asking you is that h is at the church and has that group of people to talk to and get support and she got to thinking "who's looking after Sue, so she just wanted to hang out and get to know me better..whew...now I am not sure what to say to her..should I talk as though she is a pastor..spill out my guts on what I have gone through this past year, or just talk as a friend..everyday things..no h and I talks? I know h has talked at lengths with her..he told me last year that he had talked and had told her that I did not understand his friendship with ff...boy would I like to fill her in on my view of how I felt..wait that was the old me talking, and it did not sound very nice. She is also the one who partly convinced h that his feelings are important and that he needed to do what he felt he needed.. as in move out for himself.. not what anyone else thought he should do..why does that partly grate on me? I hope she is not anti- m, she is d herself..but that should not have any part in what she says to him..should it??
