Howdy there Sue, Didn't mean to stay out of touch for so long, but I couldn't come up with something different that I havn't said before. Then I read this ...
Quoting hoping: ..why can't I just be content with the progress..most days I am, then those strange thoughts invade your brain saying let's get moving on this..let's decide if you still love me...I have always been like that..I want it fixed NOW...
Sue, you've question a few times if you fit in here ... now I can say you fit right in with the rest of us.
All joking aside, you have come to be as emotionally steady as nobody else I've come to know on this bb for the short time you have been here. ... and that has been an inspiration to me to keep trying to do the same as I'm sure to many others here too.
Altho, I was trying to be light-hearted about your post, its doesn't take away from being any less true, you aren't alone in having these thoughts. They are a part of being the LBS. So its perfectly normal for these thoughts to reoccur. Don't beat yourself up for having them. The "key" as you already know is not to act on these feelings, but just to ride them out.
... oh ... and vent them here as often as you need ... we are more than happy to help work your way thru them
