Now comes the hard part. The work. The pain. The work. The admissions. The work. The guilt. The "shoulda woulda coulda"s. The second guessing. The work. The books. The tears. The anger. The work.
Yenko just checking in to see how things are going for you. Sounds hopeful. So glad.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
It did sound hopeful. At one point I did think so. Tonight she said she wanted to talk sometime and be honest. I told her now was a good time.
She went with the I've tried to get my feelings of intimacy and back. The famous ILYNILWY. She cares for me deeply but does not have it in her anymore to try. She has tried for the last couple years ect. I would never be able to trust her. She wants to be independent, happy. You all get the point.
I told her I was not the same person anymore. That with the right actions and thoughts the right emotions follow. I was not arguing with how she felt, just what I believe.
When I went to leave she asked me how I felt. I told her she had her perspective I had mine. There was nothing I could do about it and would see her tomorrow.
There is not a whole lot to say about it. It did stop the conflict of part of me that keeps trying and the larger part that says the h@ll with this.
I do know that if we both worked hard then we could have a wonderful marriage. She is still stuck in the same spot she was in June. Time to start going on with my life and see what happens.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
Time to start going on with my life and see what happens.
Thats all you can do.
I'm sorry it didn't go better. This sounds like "fog talk" to me. Maybe she isn't completely done with OM?
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
I agree with sugar, yenko. My guess is she WANTS so badly to repair the marriage and work it out, but that OM pull is so strong. Can you get her to see a pastor, or to retrouvaille?
I was over at the house all day redoing the bathroom floor. Still not finished, I would have been a lot farther along if I did not have SRT training yesterday. Both SD 17 and D 11 were at home sick. SD17 left in the afternoon for her aunts down the street so I stuck around to watch D11 until W got home.
She got home from work and was unloading some things from the store. She got some things for D11 bday and Christmas. She must still be under the assumption we are going to do Christmas together, doubt it.
I did notice on her left ring finger a ruby ring that I had not seen before. She does have some guts to wear it in front of me and be all nice about things.
When I left she said something about me leaving so soon when she got home because she was there and I was mad at her. It was because she was there, no anger though. That and I had to do some laundry before work tomorrow.
She told me yesterday that I should let go. It reminded me of the old saying be careful what you wish for you just might get it.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
Thanks, I will let you know. I am going by the 48 hour rule. I do appreciate you dropping by here. I have been keeping up with you on your thread, I just don't seem to post a whole lot lately. It seems like I will have more free time now.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
