God grant me the patience and the strength...8

[WCW]

I don't agree with your definition of being detached but if that works for you then go with it!

I am glad that you are realizing there is need to help on the farm and all the work that shouldn't fall to one person. If it has always been your dream then your H should not have been the only one responsible. Please be careful in your new zeolusness to help that you don't get portrayed as clingy or following him around like a lost puppy. Learn and grow and next time you'll use your frustration to figure out a way around that stupid tractor.

I am not opposed to an ocassional snoop if you are prepared for the outcome. I relate it to checking a pulse. Note of caution - if your H is hanging around home and ow is in contact with him is there any way that can jeopardize your probation? don't get caught in any traps.

For you for now - Stay steady, stay quiet, H is watching everything.