Thought I would start a new thread...not sure why....and the title is how I am feeling right now..and I don't know why(well I do..)
I am painting our hall and dd picked a color..and I told her I really wanted to ask her dad..as it is still his home too..she said he's going to say he doesn't care(as he always has)..well I took colors with me to our church campfire and as he was walking past me I told him I had some colors and as he passed me he said"whatever you want"..I was crushed..of course dd said that is the way he has always been..decorating is not his thing...on the way home I thought what kind of m could we ever have again...I know it is still a month away, but I think about our anniv..25 years is suppose to be a special one..and look where we are..I know I am feeling sorry for myself..actually pms is setting in and I have a hard time controling my emotions...I need to go back and re-read my threads and see the steps forward that we have made. Sometimes I get angry at him for leaving and creating this wonderful single life of coming and going as he feels like..not even trying to fix our m..then I ask God to help me..I don't want to be consummed with anger..but I can sure see how those of you who are back together can experience these feelings.
So I need to readjust my thoughts and get the peace back..
