Just a slight update......BIG blowup between he and I on trust issue the other night and even though we have not come to an all out conclusion I am coasting along where I have ended up. Thanks to a couple of people on this board i have seen a couple of things that I did not see on my own about myself and my behavior in this. He went out of town on Friday and I will not see him again til next Friday...I have been turning my phone off at night so that I am not tempted to answer if he calls. NOrmally when he goes to the Lake( only 2 hours away and has his boys there) he will not call me....I expressed how this made me feel and he blew me off.....or so I thought. I got up this morning and had a voicemail on my phone....babystep, but he is listening to me and is trying to make me feel better. I am going to go semi-dark this week and focus on me, my children, my apartment, and getting ready for school. Will check in here soon....thanks for the replies!!
