How to start from scratch in 12 Mos Separation ?

[SingleDad]

I have done what I think is right - and I have told her too many times how I feel about things and our daughter, etc.

Again, as you said, she is in another place and everything I say is worthless and twisted to her liking.

I was been doing much better for several weeks but now I have taken a major turn for the worse when I found about Ex sleeping with BF when Our daughter was in the next room.

Now I am in anguish again. I have not learned how to just accept it as part of the hardships of life.

My W telling me what a pit of hell I am, and in her view spoiling my daughter and not disciplining her the way I should be, and having my daughter see my negative energy - that I should just grow up and get over it - I am damaging our daughter. My W says she is doing her best to repair the damage "I" have caused to our daughter.

I just do not know what to do. Everything is screwed up. There is no chance of saving the marriage - every thing I have done to date is wrong.

I do no know how to pretend it doesn't bother me. I do not know how to pretend I have a great life. I do not know how to move on. ... I am in a pit of hell. Why am is so fixated on this? Why does it seem so many others can just shrug off their marriage and move on so easily.

I am worried I will never be happy again. I am worried about raising my daughter properly on my own when I have her. I wish my W were dead - at least then I wouldn't keep having any last thread of hope be constantly crushed. I wouldn't have the constant and daily reminder that my life has turned to crap.

I know I need to live my own life - but I forgot how. And I never dated much before I got married... not sure I want to be dating again, but I am so tired of being alone and hurt.