Signs to say WAW woke up?

[dday101798]

Well, I knew the 'silence' wouldn't last long.

W started blowing my phone up last night, I declined the calls.

She finally sends a text claiming to call her becasue she needs to know what assignments son I had last week is "still missing". To which I replied, none, I verified and signed off on them.

She then calls again, leaves a message begging me to call with the same invalid excuse that it's about his homework. To which I ignore.

I then get a call from brother in law, asking me on behalf of her since I won't answer my phone, if she can 'swap out' a weekend with them and take them out of town for Thanksgiving. (to the same location she was SUPOSSED to take them to this past weekend). Hence, as I knew, there were NO missing assignments and just a ploy to start the 'games' up once again.

Then the texts start rolling in, "what's with you, this is what I mean, you love me one day, hate me the next, I don't understand you".

Inbetween all of which, first off only once in recently have I hinted to to the fact that I still [felt] love for her, i did not reply to that.

I only replied, what do you expect from me, you left your family for him? You made a choice.

She then FINALLY admits to having a share in the "blame" for things going wrong, this shocked me. Coutnelss times have I had to endure "being the sole cause". I have said since get go one, WE BOTH caused the seperation. But no, she either means I have my share in causing her to be with OM, or she is referring to the seperation and still sees nothing wrong with being with OM, unclear on that, but I'm sure it would be the later of the two. I just let that be for the rest of night.

5am I get text wanting to know why I wasn't replying, and she went through the prior week of events once again, making them all my fault, when I was calm and cordial with her, even when she was half dressed with OM knowing I was bringing our son over to her as he requested and that it was her her threw sons coat on the porch after seeing her stuff the SHE REQUESTED to be put out for her, and was upset.

This is getting old in a hurry. Should have never responded at all. And once agin, after all that, as I pass "her" house on the way to the train this monring, there's OM's car. I really would love to corner him one day and show him my phone bill with how many times she texts and calls. But that' sright, they have a 'open relationship'.

Losing faith and all hope on this, at this point after seeing them together the way the were at the park and on Friday, I don't think I could ever cleanse my mind of the mental picture of them together.