Oh on the empty promises thing it was because I said I had brought home food for him...
I know I need to quit thinking about the negative; it's so true...I guess I wish I could have one very clear indication from H that he wants to be with me. Right now it's pretty much a feeling that he has changed toward me in a good way.
So last night when H got home we watched some DVDs and had a couple of beers. We were sitting nearish on the couch to each other, but no touching or affection. There was joking around like usual, and that was good. In fact when he got home he told me a few things about his day, that he bought himself some gloves etc., then threw in "I went to therapy". He didn't say anything else about it, but I'm still glad that he told me. I'm also glad that after he went to his session he was still being nice. He doesn't seem to get quite as moody as he had been before.
We went to bed, but no ML and no talking really. Throughout the night I would periodically lay near enough to him that we'd be slightly touching, and he didn't usually pull away.
I guess for the moment I am going to need to continue with business as usual. It seems like things are improving, but it is definitely a slow process. I think I'm pretty much out of 180s by this point, so am just continuing to be as pleasant as possible, never bicker about anything, do a good deal of the housework etc. I will continue not to bring up R conversations, not to talk about the future, not to talk about how I feel etc.
So, we'll see what today brings!
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
