It's Tx Mom.. 2nd thread.. trying to hold on...

[TxMomw/2girls]

Thanks for jumping in Lola..

LE - my C didn't say for me to date at all she just asked me what could I do that would shock him, what 180... I said if he saw me dating someone... and no I don't want to date.. but at times I do feel like I wish I had a friend to hang with.. but I have no emotion to give.

Lola, I think it is hard to say if I could forgive H... I really believed I could but what I struggle with is his abandonement and just up and leaving without trying to work on it...that would be my fear and my struggle over the affair itself... I really think my H is struggling so the affair is somewhat minor in comparsion to the choices he's made since exposure, what he has done to the kids, etc... but I also don't believe he'll come back anytime soon - if ever.. only time will tell.

imLIN - in tx there is no legal separation... only way to protect is to file a motion... and I'm with you I do struggle with titles... like MLC and what is it really? do we just put a name to something to make us feel better? It is easier for me to copy knowning that this all might be called something like MLC...

Like LE has learned... through crisis you really really take a good look at who you've been married too and there are some charactertics that not sure my H would get help on to ever make this work... or want to look at himself... childhood issues too...

I also have moments where I feel I'm done in my heart... especially now that people through their work and mutual friends are finding out I feel my pride standing up and not sure when everyone knows that I could take him back..without God literally saving him and performing a miracle... once again it would be just that a miracle that would bring him back...

I'm sure in another day I'll be sad or grieving again but I do like my good days and the feel good - not being angry or sad.. nice place to be today.... although my H hasn't called to check on the kids the last two days which isn't normal but what do you do...

thanks as always for posting... Lola do you have a post? fill us in and any advice you have regarding MLC is always welcomed... sorry you are here too...