I am also very worried that you are obsessing about what this means, how long he'll stay, is he back, is he going to leave, does he still see OW, does he want me back.....
Question. I hope I can word this in the right way. I know you said it killed you not to help him when you had to work. Did it kill you because you were really worried he would be mad at you, or did you *really* want to out there helping him. Does that make sense? Are you more worried about his disappointment in you ("There goes TOH, not helping again..." sort of thinking)?
