I just wanted to write something about the MLC'ers letting us go. My daughters told me that daddy hardly ever talks about 'us' as a 'family' anymore...he used to tell them lots of stories of all we used to do, but he has stopped. He now only talks of himself and ow things. My kids have noticed, and they are sad about it. I think it is very obvious that H has let go of this life. Of 'our' life. It's tough to realize, but in my heart I think I knew...for a long time.
Will he be happy with ow? I don't know, on some level, I hope it will end, so that maybe there is a chance for him to at least realize what has happened. But I have a feeling that may not happen for a LONG time. Maybe never....
I'm ok though, enjoying life, not ready for a new man, but not closing my options, as you never know what the future holds. With that being said, I still stand for my marriage and I still pray that God helps the man that I truly love (H) find his way home again.
D9 cried again tonight. She was upset that her daddy didn't come to watch her at the hockey match. All I could do was comfort her, and tell her I love her.
I love you all too ! May God bless all your wonderful hearts. And may he bring happiness and answered prayers to you all this coming year !
Much love, Cinders xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
