Today I feel a little stronger. He left me yesterday with a horrible feeling , undermined my integrity and honesty. He was not attractive.
I know it is a matter of 2 steps forward and 1 back and i know my reactions are normal. I want to be me and to be emotionally strong and healthy, so that if in the future we can reconcile, then it will be for the right reasons. Patience is the key as SPM has being busily pointing out.
Baby steps and sometimes they are invisable but I am pretty sure they are there.
I am maintaining no contact. My requested email arrived today on time , an indication , he was thinking about it. If he calls I will now take them but C advised last night to keep responses minimal and not to take a bite of the poison apple and then spit it out. An example:
I asked H not to take OW to our holiday home. I should of said " could we come to an agreement that our holiday home is sacred to this family". Giving him oppotunity for input and an understanding that he has agreed to.
So lesson, be careful of responses and if not to confident of answer to give - dont give one.
