I really screwed up today. My daughter had a doctors appointment for a checkup and I totally forgot about it. I had to reschedule the appointment. I apologized to my ex and told her I feel really bad about. I could tell she was upset although she didn't tell me so.
I feel like crap right now. I feel like all my hard work and progress just went down the drain. I love my ex and my daughter so much. I am just a loser. How could I forgot something like that. Right now trust is a big issue with my ex and if I can't even be trusted to take my daughter to a doctors appointment on time, how in the world is she going to trust me.
I am writing this doing my lunch hour as I went home to cry and now I am venting. I feel like giving up right now. This journey is so hard with my doing the right things that one screw up like this makes it seem like all that hard work was for nothing. Maybe I shouldn't have done it, but I felt so bad that I had flowers (daisies) sent to her job with a note that said "I'm really sorry and I feel really bad."
The thing is, I really do feel really bad and I don't know that that is even going to matter to her. All she sees is that I screwed up and that she cannot rely on me for anything.
Okay, I update you all on what happened afterward as I am going to lay on my bed right now and cry.
