Trying2live-Post #4

[faithrunner]

Hope, I know how you feel about H's promotion. My H just finished his doctorate and he goes on and on about how this person helped him and this person, etc. I feel like screaming, what about me? How about one simple thank you for the past 5 years reading your thesis so many times I can recite it, supporting your research, taking the kids so you could work on it, listening to you vent about problems you were having. How about that? I may never get that from him, and it frustrates me.

I'm kind of in a venting mood today, I guess. This past weekend was good - H stayed from morning to evening both days, called me after he left in the evening, so I know he wasn't with OW. Kept saying he had a great time. Remember I was anxious about my GAL on Sunday b/c H would be taking the kids out and I worried he might invite OW? Well, guess what he did? He invited my step-dad, who he is close to, to join him with the boys. I was so happy about that, and surprised that he would do that-called him and invited him himself.

They had a blast, and H followed up yesterday by writing my step-dad an email saying that he loved him like a father and was jealous of my brothers that they had a man like him to look up to. H told step-dad he felt like a failure in this life and hoped he could maintain their relationship. (H sent me the email under the guise that step-dad had asked about using H's car seats to help me out while H is deployed. H sent me an email saying, hey what do you think about giving them my car seats? I scrolled down and read his original email, and was like -WHAT is this?).

So, clearly H wanted me to see what he wrote to my step-dad. I didn't respond at all to the failure comment, because he will be one if he walks away. I just said I had never seen him express his feelings for a family member that way and that it was beautiful and I was proud of him. He said thanks, and that he felt like he had PMS today (joking). His need is admiration, so I wanted to validate how important it was to reach out to my step-dad (even though part of me is like, why won't you reach out to ME? And, if they knew about your EA, do you think they would be giving you the time of day?)

So I found out from my mom that SD wrote him back a nice email (her words). Surprisingly I didn't hear about it from him, so I wonder what it said. I can't figure out why he decided to open his heart to SD. It doesn't make sense to me.

T2L, that article was great.