I'm so sorry, Kat. It's just not fair. And, this man he is right now....no, you can't count on him. Focus on being the great mom that you are and focus on you. Make sure you are doing something for yourself at least once a day, even if it is just going to a flower shop and buying a single, beautiful flower. I get such joy out of the little things these days.
Putting everything in God's hands is the best thing you can do. I saw your post earlier. At one of my lowest points, I prayed to God over and over. Just the simplest prayer I knew best:
Our Father, who art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive those who trespass against us, LEAD US NOT INTO TEMPTATION, BUT DELIVER US FROM EVIL,
For thine is the kingdom, the power, and the glory, Now and forever. Amen.
By the tenth time saying it, tears streamed down my face and I could barely get out the words. At the end of the prayer I would say, "Please help me." or "GUide me, Lord." I repeated the prayer over and over and over until I felt some peace.
He answered my prayers. He will answer yours, too.
