God grant me the patience and the strength...8

[theotherhalf]

H combined yesterday. I would have gave my right arm to have taken off work and helped him. But my boss is busy and thought I had better not ask. So I worked all day. It really bugged me that like the old days H was here trying to do it all by himself.

I met him with a load on my way home. So I hurried up and got some things done at home. Then called him and asked if there was anything I could do to help. He said I could bring the auger wagon over if I wanted to. (I've never pulled it). I told him I would. Well, I get out there and the other tractor is right in the way of getting the tractor and wagon out. The other tractor won't start. So I tried to jockey around it. Couldn't. Tried to start the other one again. Wouldn't. In the end H came home and quit for the night. He couldn't get it started either. D*MB!

I was so ticked off at myself. I try sooo hard and it seems I can't do anything right. I feel so incompetent when it comes to this farm stuff. H seemed fine. He seemed understanding.

On another note..."Thinking out loud"...If H really didn't WANT to be here...If he was "forced" to be here because of his truck...wouldn't he be hurrying to get the truck fixed so he can go back to his shack? I found the number yesterday morning to call to see if he can get the part. He said he wasn't worried about it today. He never called. Hasn't even said anything. Hmmm...