I keep invading Cinco's threads so I'll vent elsewhere/here. Wife and I are struggling. We are in MC together. I am a night owl and tend to go to bed late. This morning she says "you need to come up earlier" Hint hint. I say I didn't think you wanted to do that anymore. (It's been more than a month and we've done it maybe 5 times in the last six months). She says "yes I do !" with a little enthusiasm. So tonight I go up before 9. She's awake watching TV. I get in the shower and am out in 10 minutes. She's "asleep" - not totally but making it clear IMO she's is avoiding any activity. I get in bed and she is actively trying to go to sleep. I decide to get up since I went up there to be with her and it is apparent it is now false hope. She asks what I'm doing and I ask her if she's going to sleep. Yes. I say OK. I say I'm going downstairs. She asks if I'm mad. No. Kind of tho really. It's such a drag and now I've come to expect it.
Trying to decide why I'm trying to stay married to her. I left her flowers this morning. She says I saw the nice roses - no thanks or anything like that - just she saw them - the third time in a row this was the reaction although one time she said nothing.
I'm having a hard time.... she's not taking care of herself physically and I'm starting to feel as she apparently doesn't want me, why am I trying with her ? She isn't all that shapely or as hot anymore - and she's cold sexually - why am I bothering to try ? I hate thinking like that. I've reduced trying dramatically and I don't think she's hardly noticed.
Her reaction to the SSM concept ? LOL - and discarding of the idea.
