Bagheera, I HAVE decided to write him a lengthy letter. You are right, and I had decided to do so beforehand, but you made me feel better about it. Thank you. I'm not sure I can get it to him, it may sit here until Christmas time, but that's ok. I've waited this long, so whats another month or so. He says hes on board, he told me he'd read the book and write, so he's about to get the FULL MEAL DEAL! I am going to write and ask all these questions I have, vent a little. And in return all I want is a letter in return. I think I am owed that much.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhh Jayce, ouch!
I feel for you I do. When I read your comment about getting another dog, I laughed. I know it was NOT meant to be a joke, but it was a laugh cry because I know how you feel. When I married H, I came into the marriage with 2 kids. I was ok on my own, and your right, we came into these marriages with the untold rule that there is suppose to be all those things we want and you mentioned. Then POOF.......... it's gone and were left wondering where the hell it went and why, while the other half has a beer and wonders silently to himself, " whats wrong with her. " < My own little added rant there I guess. Arghh, and ughh!!!!
I didn't go to the mail box yet. Gonna wait until later or tomorrow. I'm afraid really. In my heart I know that if I get there and there is nothing, that he is in fact just shrugged it off, or is waiting. I know he's trying in his own way, but it has to be more. I won't settle any longer. Progress has to happen or I am out. ( I think ) lol
I had asked H about the same things you did. I asked him if he ever got horny, he said he did, just rarely, and that it went away. Hmmmmmmmmm But he has also said he doesn't like sex, then he said he did. Who knows, and that's why I have to write this letter. Get the truth out of him for once. I can't do anything if I don't know what I am working with here.
