Is this worth saving, or am I only fooling myself?

[Dash]

Hi Faith,

Sorry I somehow missed your post earlier when I was looking through the thread.

What you say is very true. I have noticed that when I'm feeling down or missing her, reading some of the things I've written and others here have written, really does help. It gives me strength.

I still feel at peace. I think a big part of this was in letting go of expectations. The only person I can truly expect anything of is me. She will do what she has in her heart and mind to do. Nothing I can do to change that.

I have thought about what I would say if she suddenly decided she wanted things to work between us. Each time I see myself telling her that I don't think it can. Am I psyching myself up for this? Or is it just my mind's way of dealing with the loss and accepting it? Giving me back control.

I've often read that the human mind cannot differentiate between what is real and what is imagined. Perhaps there in lies my answer.

Thank you for your encouraging words, I really do appreciate them.

Dash