The weekend was a good one. Our couples' massage was incredible...afterward, H comes up behind me and gives me a huge hug. It felt so nice. Then, we went to dinner at a steak place. H's choice. There was over an hour wait so we got a chance to talk, drink beer, and watch sports on the tvs. He was a happy man. By the time we were eating dinner, I was feeling the two huge Spotted Cow beers I drank. WHew. After, we went to the party of a friends. It was ok there. Best part was my H coming up to me, putting his arm around me. Me checking on him when he was gone too long, etc. Nice. (He liked my new outfit I bought to wear that night, too. Kept commenting on it. ) Fast forward to getting home....well, cause of the drinking, I was getting sick to my stomach... Kinda put a damper in the evening. BUT...DID have a longer kiss than usual before going to bed.
Sunday, our son woke us up...came into our bed giggling and talking and having fun. I'm so lucky. Then, he said he'd give us time to wake up and went to his room to play (He's 6!!!! Wow, God must have been whispering in his ear or something) Anyway, we snuggled and slowly woke up. We read the paper together, our son played near us, drank our coffee. Then, we got ready for church. Went to church, came home, normal day of laundry and work. Then, that night there was a church thing for families. By this time, my cup is full. I'm just feeling so full of love and thankfulness for what I have. We sat as a family and listened to God's word and a fun presentation. My H pulled me close, arm around me, and my son on our laps in front.
Today, I'm pulled to prayer and thankfulness. I sit here, working at home, in my beautiful house, while my son is at school and my H is at his good job, and I feel so undeserving.
Today, I'm pulled to prayer and thankfulness. I sit here, working at home, in my beautiful house, while my son is at school and my H is at his good job, and I feel so undeserving.
Wow! Your post moved me to tears. I only wish more people, not just WASs or LBSs, but people in general would have this feeling. You're awesome and inspiring. Our loved ones are something we all too often take for granted. I know I did.
Over the weekend I had decided it was time to give up on my situation, that I just couldn't do this. I think your post here has changed my mind.
Time to dig in and hope for the best, whatever that might be.
I hope you and your family have a terrific day and those feelings stay with you forever.
Dash
Me 43: Her 34 M 08/22/2005 Son born 12/31/2006 Suspicion of EA 10/10/2008 EA confirmed 10/11/2008 WAW 10/13/2008
Awwwwww....Didi, It sounds like things are falling in place for you. Well, I don't mean exactly falling into place because you and your H have really worked hard to recover your marriage. I wish you nothing but the best.
Have you ever read "When Love Dies" by Judy Bodmer? Her situation is similar to yours. She was almost a WAS, but decided her marriage was worth it. It tells of her trials and tribulations. I think that it would be a worthwhile read for both you and your H. Of course you should read it first then decide if you want him to read it.
Hugs, Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
WDID, I'm so happy for you. You do deserve all your happiness. Not only have you worked on your M, you help out so many of us here too! Please don't ever think that you don't deserve it. I wish every WAS could read your post today!!! Karen
WDID after that post I know in my heart you truly deserve every single second of your happiness. It was truly inspiring and I agree with Dash, wishing all people, not just the ones that are WAS/LBS would feel that way. You are truly a blessing to us here and you have worked hard to get where you are today. So enjoy the fruits of your labors, you have earned them.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
Kinda put a damper in the evening. BUT...DID have a longer kiss than usual before going to bed. 